My life... Confused... but STABLE

GPA + Archery...

2009-09-30T20:26:00.002+08:00

My GPA? Ha, I think I seem to have succeed in passing it. Ha.

Okay, 2.5o is my GPA. Yeah man, I at least passed it! Smiles...

Anyway, I think I have make my target just have to improve my results one way or another. Ha! It is impossible that my life in RP will go into waste. =)

University? Not that I have not thought. I want to score well but I think I want to go work for 2 years first before going to university. Cause I might want to become a teacher rather then going to university to further my study. I have my vision of being a teacher. So I think I got to work hard!!

My Archery... Sigh, a bit disappointment I would say if I do my first scoring. But now I would say, by forcing myself to do another round of scoring, I have improved. I know I can do it, if the day I give up thoroughly, I would have given up my hope to achieve in RP. I come into RP not as a failure but to succeed by the end of 3 years. Jia You Ruth! You can do it! =)

Challenging Archery.. =.="

2009-08-13T08:33:00.001+08:00

Archery…. Yesterday training was tough, quite tough but I am not giving up.
Archery may be more of an individual sport, but it is definitely still a team effort. Republic Archery have a never giving up spirit. Since Republic Archery is not giving up, then me as an individual will not give up too. Whenever I think that it is too tiring to push on to go for more, I must think of the rest.

Run: 6 rounds around the stadium

Sit-up: approximately 70 times

Push-up + Star Jump: 15 times

Set-up bow: 2 times (because I take like ages to screw my stand)

Take-down bow: 1 time

Woah... more challenging than Farhan’s training. I think it is good as we train as a team. I think my most challenging part was running. I was totally exhausted especially when I was running my last round. I was like breathing in and out through my mouth rather than breathing in through my nose and breathing out through my mouth.
After we have set-up our bow, we have to pull and do anchoring. I cannot anchor as the stupid bow is 30/32 pound bow. I was like, what the hell… I am used to pulling 26-28 pound bow. So when I am pulling the 30/32 pound bow, I was like using my arm muscle rather than my back muscle cause I have not train up using the back muscle yet.
Now my leg is cramp up. I must eat slightly lesser and drink less sweet drinks. My neck is cramping up and my arm muscles are sore when trying to pull the 30/32 pound bow. =.=” I think today’s lesson I will be ½ awake. Not quite sure if I can focus.

Doremon must push on. Doremon can never give up. Things that Doremon will not give up on, ARCHERY, PIANO, ART and things that the facilitators have created together with us. Doremon have a ‘NEVER GIVE UP SPIRIT” no matter how hard training and things goes. Doremon will also not give up because she has friends with her to encourage her.

Kempatei!

DOREMON IS SAD!!!

2009-08-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

I am tired of being scolded by seniors. It seems to be a long time since I was scolded by seniors. I am really upset as I confide that to one of my friends. True, when we train hard enough we will be able to shoot as well as our seniors. But when can I shoot as well as them? Doremon is tired. In this case is a female Doremon rather than a male Doremon. I am called Doremon not without a reason. I have almost everything, from basic thing such as tissue paper to plaster (first aid items). Doremon is never sad as his aim is to make people around him happy but I am not a real Doremon so obviously there is still emotional part intact.

Doremon is now sad. She needs a lot of encouragement from her friends to move on from disappointment to the energetic self (to get through the training). I can’t believe that seniors are very disappointed in the juniors. I need to prove them wrong. Seriously must do something to prove them wrong. Oh yeah, today I cannot find my stretch band. Been searching for it high and low but I just can’t find it. Today’s training will be quite tough as I should be doing the endurance test, unless Farhan is taking us then maybe will be push-up. I wonder where I have left my stretch band…

Gotta keep moving on! Kempatei!!

Fear? Afraid? Should I go school?

2009-07-17T21:32:00.003+08:00

This is not the first time that I wrote about my fear of going to school or my fear of getting bash up. This is in fact my second.

First thing first, why am I always the victim? I am just curious. Previously, I was scolded because I was too direct. Now when I have changed my way of doing thing, being less direct, I am scolded again. I am now confused which is the right way of doing things.

It seems that nothing that I do was right. I am trying my best not to write anymore but how to write neutral ground?

I guess it is best that I state the facts first.

1: xxx came in. xxx saw that he/she is going to sit with me n my friends, then his/her face colour changed thoroughly. From happy to a black face.
2: xxx do not wish to contribute. Try to persuade he/she to do by hinting, which was in the end interpreted as sarcastic remarks. Exact words: " If he/she do not wish to do work, then we let him/her to do introduction and conclusion." xxx didn't bother to share why he do not wish to contribute or didn't bother to even tell us that he/she is not happy.
3:xxx decided that it was sarcastic remark, he/she starts to swear @ me n point middle finger, which I returned as I thought he/she was trying to make fun. (my personal thought)
4:xxx decided to stare and not to do work by just staring @ zzz's computer thinking that he/she can understand through that. (my own thought again)
5: xxx decided to go home on the second meeting. All I said that: "well, if you wanna go, go ahead. After all it is your result."
6: Next thing I know was, chair flying towards me.
7: Next thing I know, fist was starting to fly toward me. Thanks God the fists did not hit me.
8: Next thing I know, I was crying and typing my angry post. =.="

Okay. That is from my point of view. It will be interesting to read from his point of view. I meant I am not as heartless as one would think.

My own thoughts and reflection:
I was hoping to hint so that he can do work but it was interpreted as sarcastic remark. I am really clueless on what I should say or do. I felt that it was impossible to continue if we are not able to get full co-operation of all the team members. I personally feel that if you are unhappy, don't just pull a long face and minding your own business. You need to at least say u are not happy. Different personality no problem. But not being courtest is another thing. It is important to at least talk. Too tired.... Maybe when I wake up all will turn for the better....

My life ever being stable?

2009-07-17T11:21:00.003+08:00

Ok... >>> All the paragraph that is written below... are written when I was so angry... really angry... So I am going to rewrite everything. This is from my point of view. I am going to state my point of view in my next post.

I am too confused... Am I too much of a pusher? I have tried. I don't want to talk? What's the big deal. I just put my words so straight forward and he just can't understand. He just so freaky don't understand. I have no more energy to talk to him.

He have been trying to be against be for ages. Hang in? Hang in... I want to go home and just forget what has just happen. He want he contribute, not happy just say. I was never so humilated before. I told myself to never cry in front of anyone. I promise. I just broke it. I don't want anymore. No mood to eat. I don't bother. No one ever throw a chair at me before. NO ONE!! I SAY THIS AGAIN NO ONE! I am too hurt to say anything. I am just hinting? He can't understand my hinting? My communication is that sucky??

Am I going to survive with him? I have tried to communicate. It is my fault that he can't understand my words then. I have spoken so loud! I didn't even bother to write on MSN because I want him to know. I said it right to him, it's his study not mine so I don't care. It is so not my problem. I am going to chiong. I have controlled. I really have tried... but I have failed again...

Why everytime I think i have succeed in maintaining my self-control. But in the end... I still failed. WTH! How can I have failed??

TIRED OF MY LIFE... I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE! I DON'T WANT!

RJ?

2009-07-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

The question was quite senstive... i wanted to write I have nothing to say/ no comment... But why would I want a F?

Share a personal experience of miscommunication due to plagiarism, stereotyping, fabrication or disclosure. How did you deal with it then and how would you deal with it after today’s lesson? Would you deal with it in a different way? Why?

Ok, I am not too sure how I am going to put into words. But I am so going to try. Ok. I will be bringing my real life story in. I am not sure how you are going to grade this, but I am just going to try.

According to the dictionary, fabrication is to lie, or to weave a story. I am not sure if is fabrication because I think that it is solely miscommunication. I am really... if I cry after writing this RJ, this is so going to be your fault... haha...

During one point of time, during my sec 3 year, I hated myself for saying the wrong things all the time. I really hated myself. The thoughts of killing myself was there because I said the wrong things. At that point of time, I really do not know how to pause, stop and think. I am really bad at that and I am definitely still learning.
During my sec 3 camp, I really regretted going for the camp. I thought that I could start to making friends whom I are my classmates. Oh, I have to tell you that I do not have any good relationship with any of my classmates. They are all new friends to me, as we split up to different classes because of the subjects that we choose. I am not that good with making friends, it usually takes me a long time before I succeed in making friends. (I do not think that I need to have the whole class to like me, just 1 or two). But at that point of time even going for the camp was a challenge to me, because... I don’t have a single friend.

I told myself I am going to try my best to make at least one friend in camp. But things turns for the worst because.... I said something wrong, which at that point of time I thought it was fine. I called one of her friend, dog. This is because I thought since the whole class is calling this person dog, I thought it is okay for me to call him dog. But.... I was wrong.

I was scolded on her blog, as a Martian... I can’t believe it. I thought everything was going to be alright but, things just headed downhill. This person managed to gang the whole class to hate me. At that point of time I really hated myself. I can’t believe, seriously can’t believe. I really do not know what to say or do. I really want to give up. I have tried pleasing my friends but nothing seem to work. None! I give up pleasing them, I revoked their every comments because I really have no idea what I should do.

I would never forget that my mom is my best counsel, she ask me to stop, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. I did something unexpected.

Read on,
I guess I better end this game(provoking each other) quick. I do not want anybody to get hurt anymore.

HEY XXX, LISTEN HERE.............

It is time, for me to say....
SORRY XXX that I cause u so much of maybe misunderstanding or whatever is the thing is, and whatever problem that I have been causing you, I am truly sorry about it unless u never read my blog you will never understand.

Anyway, XXX.

I never want to scold you or what. I only say in a lot louder than my usual tone because I just want to make myself clearer that's all nothing much. So sorry if u think I am scolding your fellow friends in 3E5 class. I am truly sorry that I thought it is ok AAA, dog. I am seriously no idea that u had a big 'family' and u refered AAA as your pet dog... (my guess only). Please correct me if I am wrong.
Alright if the way I behave, the way I speak, the tone of my speaking have hurt you, I am truly sorry about it. Please forgive me for all these things that I have done. Sorry for whatever that I had written on your tag board(a place where one can write/reply to the person). Yesterday, it was I in the wrong. I was too angry and was trying to provoke you ever more. Sorry really sorry...

If u never read this, u will think i am still angry and hate u...
Bible say
:"14 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. 15 but if you do not forgive men their sins, your father will not forgive your sins."
Matthew 6:14-15
I am just plainly follow what my God says... that's all
so therefore hope you will forgive me of everything that i had done against you.

oh can I ask one thing of you....
please do not put my family pictures(she published my family picture and said some nasty comment about it, which annoys me alot). Thanks.....
Seriously thanks alot for that.

Other than that, i just want say, what my mom praise you.
Seriously she is praising you for your good knowledge of vocabulary and description and she hope you will continue to use it in your composition and she hopes to see a book that is written about....
maybe...

"A weird Martian attacking Hillgrove"........erm that is what I added....
Using your strong sense of vocabulary and description to write it and maybe when u leave school you will have a full series of me and maybe can one of your friends to be the artist. I mean it may be in a cartoon strip... I am just giving some suggestion... u can choose not to accept and a choice to choose to accept....this little... Martian advice....

btw can u just tell me why u think i am a martian... i am just curious....
wanna know... tat's all... no offence... seriously...
"44But i tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven.." Matthew 5:44-45
i am going to follow the bible.... that all...
God still love you..... that is something i am very sure of....
"16 For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whoever believes in him ahsll never die but have eternal life.17 for God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he had believe in the name of God's one and only Son." John 3:16-18

nothing much to say only a person who had God's love is able to turn hatred into love.....

Ok. That is the end of my part. She replied that she removed the picture of my family and she is still not telling me why she called me Martian. The whole class seem to be okay with that, and I was happy to be a loner. I was no longer the centre of attention, which is totally fine with me. But if I was to apply what I have learnt into my situation, I would have learn to pause, stop and think before making such a misunderstanding.

GOOD? BAD? I really don't know... Thanks Communication Fasci... I emo le... =.="

Singapore Asian Youth Game 2009 (SAYOG 2009)

2009-07-05T19:41:00.004+08:00

Okay people, it's been a while since I blog about any thing in particular. Today, I shall use some of my free time to write about my experience in AYG.

AYG 2009 is one of the most memorable memory that I ever had. Although my job may some tough to many people and with the fact that it is suppose to be tough, but during the day that I am volunteering, it was pure pleasure to be there.

Day 1 (which is Day 4 of the bowling event): I was helping out at the bowling alley to take care of the medias. There wasn't much medias around. I am there to take down whatever media quaries that these media might have. But due to so little media, and that Team Singapore is not expected to get gold in Team event although they were expected to, I get the chance to experience "LIVE" event on the spot.

During the Girls' Team event, Team Singapore VS Team Republic of Korea VS Team Japan. I listed only these three countries because these are top 3 that fought really hard. Team Singapore fought with a never dying spirit. We managed to clinch on to 2nd place wasn't as easy as you think. I was there to watched and followed the results very closely. Singapore actually was in third position right behind Japan, in the previous days' event. But after the 4th game they actually managed to maintain at their position with Korean leading in the first place followed by Japan. I strongly believe that Team Japan was getting more and more tired as they go into the fifth and sixth round, their standard starts to fall. Team Singapore was able to strike more and more during the 5th and 6th round which in the end leads them to be in 2nd position. If Team Singapore have started striking more in their fourth game, I believe we would have clinch a Gold instead of a Silver. Reason simply that it was only a small gap of 73 points. (According to my memory)

During the Boys' Team event, Team Singapore did not do as well as expected I would say if I were to compare their performance with yesterday result. They managed to get to a 3rd position but in the first game/fourth game, they did not score points that could help them to maintain in 3rd position for long if they do not start to strike more. Indeed my prediction was right as they did not strike more but did more badly. This actually leads to a fall from 3rd position to 4th position. The crowd gets really tense up as they hope that Singapore could get at least a bronze since Team Hong Kong VS Team Singapore VS Team Korea VS Team Indonesia. All four teams are quite strong but Team Singapore could maintain at 2nd position if not for their poor performance in fourth and fifth round. You might be wondering then how did Singapore managed to get back to the 2nd position? This will all thanks to the first and the last player. Basil and Justin. Justin who is playing the last game was the most intense match which I have watched so far. He managed to score 3 strikes for his last game. This resulted that Team Singapore make a jump from fourth position to second position and clinch a Silver. Of course the cheers from the crowd was extraordinary. It was as if there was a surrond system in the venue. I must say that when Justin scored a 3 strike. It seriously just make the crowd go crazy.

That's more than enough for Day 4 of the Bowling in Team event. Let's start with today's event which is the Masters.

New Hui Fen and Darshini Krishna is our player in Master. There were only two players to play in Master. New Hui Fen do not seem to be in her usual self as her result starts to deterioate as the games draw to a close. She was in first position for the first 4 to 5 games but as it goes to the 6 to 8 games, her results drops drastically. As the Master first block ended, Hui Fen got But Darshini Krishna, she managed to make a comeaback. She was in fourth position during the first 2 games, then she starts to drop from the first to the 8th position from the fifth game onward. As for Darshini Krishna, she was not doing so well in her fourth to sixth game. She was in the tenth position in the 6th game. But in her seventh game, she got a 279 point and a 10 point bonus which she make a great leap from the tenth position and shared a second position with Saito,Shinobu. In her last game, she scored a 258 point and a 10 point bonus. This allow her to grasp the first at the first half of the game. As for Hui Fen, she managed to maintain in the top 10 position. with a total score of 1617.

I will not comment for the Boys' Master event as I wasn't present to see how well they have done. To know more about the Boys' Master event, you could check out on www.ayg2009.sg. I am not the official spokesperson for this event. I am just writing on how I feel. Really wish to go to the final of the Masters' event. But due to excess staff and have s sold out of tickets, I couldn't go. I have to come online just to know who get the top three awards.

GO TEAM SINGAPORE! GO Darshini Krishna and Hui Fen! All The Best!

E-Learning~

2009-06-26T17:20:00.003+08:00

E-learning is not suppose to be interesting. I mean after all you'll still suppose to be learning something by end of the day.

Anyway, after one week of e-learning, I think I was like playing my destiny game rather than focusing on more e-learning. I woke up as early as 7 then start to download all the documents from LEO and then give all sort of crappy excuses for not handing up my work... yup...

Well after all, by end of the day you get the idea of the overall solution, then you do not have to a darn about the conversation that they have on LEO or on MSN. I was sick on one of the day which is totally true. No false in it...

I didn't have to lie about it. It was factual true. I keep wanting to vomit out everything that I eat. The moment I have finish my breakfast, I wanted to vomit. The moment I have finish my lunch, I also want to vomit. I believe I do not need to go on with the list. So yeah. I was feeling so tired out on tuesday. Couldn't concentrate on lesson except that I can concentrate on things that is least important such as gaming...

Remeber one of my wish list is that I want to level up my character to level 40 by end of July. Well guess what, I am already level 41 in early July. What? Yeah... I mean just 2 sole day, slow levelling non-stop for about 8 hours straight each day, and that is what you get.

I think I have to readjust my wish list. And definitely there is one more thing I am so going to add. I am not going to quit until I am level 100 and above. Oh let me say more accurately, that refers to every single characters that I create... You must be wondering... What? Such high standard arh? Sorry lah, it is not a very high standard as one will think. I mean look at the time I start playing, about a week ago, I was a noob level 0, and now I am level 41 mage and a level 12 priest. I am sure it will convince you that it is still a no way as I still need to juggle study with gaming. Let me assure you when it is time to study, I will definitely put in the effort.

Not forgetting that I want to find a job before end of Year 1, I will have to then juggle between work and gaming during my holiday break which is going to happen in like 39 days excluding sat n sun. I am sure that you will agree with what I say. If I can't find any part time job during my holiday then I will have to find them in my 2nd semester. Although I pray to get one, if God do not want me to have then I am fine. I could then continue with my leveling of my character in Destiny.

Ok got to take a break! Tata~

H1N1

2009-06-25T17:52:00.002+08:00

Hmm... Actually I am not suppose to be blogging about this stupid disease but anyway I have something to comment so yup I am going to blog about it.

Ok Let's start with H1N1.

Monday, RP say school have 2 cases of H1N1...
Nothing happen for everyone was still okay.

Wednesday, RP say all Year 1 Students are not to come to school for 1 week.
Okay, so I thought to myself fine.... but then... it was not fine when I hear from the news. 12 more cases were reported....

Er? Seriously, I am wondering why RP never inform us how many of RP student got H1N1 and then who are these people? I am seriously irritated sia. How would I know if I have come in contact before? The possiblity that Year 2 and Year 3 getting it is also there, I mean think about when they come back to school? About a week? Ok I am sure in one week there is definitely IG activity going on... I wonder how can the disease not spread, unless these students do not attend IG then of course the seniors will not get.

Okay enough of my own questioning. Let's talk about E-learning. I think the forum suck like hell. I mean, I was like waiting for the forum to load for like 15 mins every time I press the refresh button. It is so darn F***ed up la. I cannot describe it. Then the communicator also have problem... Everytime I chat with my friends, I can see their message but they can't. WTH I am really annoyed. Lucky the fasci smart use msn in the end. If she enver use, I think we will go chaotic.

Okay. I just can't wait to head back to school for lesson. I prefer going to school for have lesson rather than using elearning.

tata

AYG 09 n Church Camp 09 n Archery n Luminary

2009-06-12T17:06:00.004+08:00

I have been wondering for days on what I want to write on my blog.... Finally I have come with the conclusion... I shall write about some thoughts on AYG and about the church camp.

Okay, let's start with AYG 2009. The event is going to take place soon. I am given the position of a Media Relation Asssistant. I think my job is going to be tough and I am not sure if I can do the job well. Really praying that the media do not give me and my fellow buddy any tough job. I am praying that I can do things to the best that I can.

Can't believe that 4th July is such a "good" date. Many events seems to fall on that day for me. 1st, I have to attend my secondary school's speech day to get my NYAA certificate, then 2nd I have to spend my time at Orchid Country Club for my volunteering at AYG, then finally I have to rush for a wedding banquet (I still have no idea where yet). Oh my... I can understand my sunday's schedule, which is a bit of rush from art class to AYG venue, but for saturday's schedule? I am really clueless why is it so hectic.

Oh well. I got to make sure I know how to go to the venue tomorrow. Or else if I am lost, it will take me a few hours later before I reached the venue. I pray that I will not get lost and I can reached the venue on time and I pray that the meeting can also ends on time. I got to rush back home to get my art stuff for art lesson. *Sigh*

Oh well, AYG still seem a little far... let's talk about church camp which is going to happen this coming monday. Lesson is going to start on monday, and I am going away for a holiday? WTH, yes I am going away. No choice de la. My whole family not in Singapore, neither of my grandparents are fit enough to watch over me/(to follow my hectic schedule), so I have to follow along lor.

Although I promise that I will go for the sermon, but I wonder if my heart can be in the sermon or my heart is still far in Singapore can't getaway from my hectic schedule? People, I know you must be thinking that I am either crazy or I am not in the right state of mind to say this. But get this right in the head, I am fine but I just missed the hectic schedule in my life. I seemed to have enjoyed the hectic schedule that I have before holiday. Without the routine, I seem to be lost.

Monday,Wednesday and Friday - Archery Physical Training
Tuesday and Thursday - Swimming Lesson

As you can see from that schedule it is packed! Haha. So when holiday comes it is a a relief that I have a break... but now I can't wait for my school term to start. Although my grades suck like hell, but I still enjoy being in class. At least I am still graded rather getting a U=Ungraded. *Sigh* Life is a choice, but sometimes life have a fixed the path for you and you are unable to change the path.

Oh yeah, finally come with my favourite topice of the post. Archery... Muah ha ha... Actually, it is not funny. Seriously. I have not been doing much serious training since the holiday start except the first day of the holiday when I am still high from the Archery camp(I mentioned I never go but the first day effect still there)... I am so sure that the pain will come back when I go for training after my church camp that week. I think that during church camp, I really need to buckle up.

There is going to be a competition coming soon. I think, I will pass... (I will fail) Er... that is written after watching the facing the giant. This Archery competition is like a giant to me. I am so afraid that I am fail. But if I keep telling myself I cannot and I will fail. I am sure going to fail. so i have to keep encouraging myself that I can do it with God's strength and not by my own strength, for with my own strength I am unable to accomplish things.

Luminary... People, I think you must be wondering. What the hell am I talking about. Alright I get your concern. It is an online game. Easily you could be played and leveled. I have leveled to level 20 within a time span of 48 hours. After that, you will take a longer time to level up. Won't tell you what I have lerant. I was going to say I hope to level to level 30 by end of tonight... *Impossible task* But I am going give it a shot. Level 21 when I last login. =)

Okay. Got to get back to my game and of course my pre-reading for entreprize.

Tired!

2009-05-28T09:27:00.002+08:00

OMG! Archery is killing me... no let me put it in another way.

Archery IG n Synergy IG are all crashing together and therefore killing me... =.=" I hope I am making some sense in here...

Arm muscle are cramp up so are my leg muscle... Wonder where else will pain... Anyway, swimming rocks sia, relax my whole body, but after swimming... er... my back muscle finally ache... lame shyt right? I know...

Train for archery not pain, but when learning how to swim can do until back pain... wth man... What's wrong with my back muscle? Funny sia... haha...

As for my understanding test for communication, if I can get a D for it will be amazement sia... haha... Anyway... I think overall got to push through this year. If I pass all my module with a D or C, I tell you I think I don't mind staying through. If not, don't bother seeing me in school next year...

Got to Push through for my science UT tomorrow... Really tired sia... I think I am almost half dead le... Shyt... Wth, it's so darn late... I will try to blog tomorrow... Nite Journal! =)

RANDOM PICTURES!

2009-05-26T14:04:00.005+08:00

I like this picture... because the world is just too big for us to understand and when you point it out... no one will really know exactly where I am actually pointing....

Archery!! SERIOUS TRAINING IN PROCESS...

2009-05-26T12:33:00.002+08:00

Woah!!

I am really dead tired sia... =.="

Yesteday I have Archery PT(Physical Training) la... Do unitl half-dead sia.... now my back ache, hand ache, arm cramp... today still got swimming lesson sia... I wonder if I can survive sia... Chiong arh! I really need to push...

I definitely won't be attending the Archery Camp, no matter how much I wanted.

Reason 1: Have already decided things to be done on weekend.
Reason 2: Don't think I want to push on, back bone pain... torture sia,.. dragon boat training is worse than archery...
Reason 3: The camp they cr8 is still very messy, never mention if food is provided or what.. lol

So anyway, Overall, NO ARCHERY CAMP for me.. >.<"

I really doubt that today got any swimming lesson lor... It is like raining so dran... I mean it is raining cats and dogs lor... OMG!! I want to swim!! This will help to reduce the pain that is on my back... The senior say they are training our back... er... senior, I really doubt you are training the back... it seems to be more of the arm... Zzz... xp..

Yesterday, we ran around the school x1, then do push up x30, sit up x30, hold the 0.75L water bottle for 6mins, use of the stretch band x480 and then lastly another 15 pushup... I guess that is practically what we did yesterday... almost break my back sia... =.="

For Archery, JYJY!!

SHL Freshman Orientation Programme 2009

2009-05-25T13:53:00.001+08:00

PICTURES FROM THE ORIENTATION CAMP!! =)

OUR PROUD VIC3 LEADER!! =) ZUL!

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Exhausted... Whom to I give my Trust?

2009-05-24T17:21:00.000+08:00

Enterprize UT tomorrow... I feel that I am so gonna fail tomorrow test...

Study = No study....
Like what one of my Service-Learning fasci say, Fail to Plan = Plan to Fail... but I got plan leh, if I still fail, then I really have nothing to say le...

My sis now is trying to watch finish the F4 Korean drama series... I really have no idea if I can handle... My emotion will go into a roller coaster ride whenever I watched this show. Sometimes I feel that if only I could be the actress... well like my previous post, I mentioned that I have seemed to have watched too much drama series, and I was just so Right... >.<"

I think my dream is always shattered by people whom I place my trust on. I really didn't mean to place so much trust on them, but in this world you need to trust one another so that we can do things the way that is expected if we do not, we always will live in the world that the other person is trying to cheat our fame, our work and many other... but I really don't know whom to trust anymore.

I can't even trust myself let alnoe trusting other in things that I am sure that they will break... No one to trust, no one to turn to in time of need... who can I trust? I like one guy, but... I don't know if he even knows, when I see him, I will kinda blush... how am I going to hold back my blush and my love for him. God, please help me...

Confusion... Emotion...

2009-05-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

I wondered... everytime, I walk past a couple or when I hear my classmates chit chatting abt BGR, why am I so irritated by their remarks?

I sometimes thinks that I am just too affected by my emotions or I have just watched too much drama series... anyway I don't like the way my class treated my religion. I am often asked, why am I so serious? Simply I could answer is that I think that everyone like to be treated equally. No one like to be insulted because of their religion or race or things that they like. I seriously hoped that people could treat me in a slightly more respected manner.

I don't like to be insulted. No name will be mentioned here but seriously, I don't like to be the middle person all the time. can you people learn? If possible just talk to the person whom you don't like straight in the face. Never lie about how one felt as this causes complexity.

I am a bit questioning myself why on earth did I choose to go RP instead of other poly? Now I seem to be haunted by a spirit of my ex who is now currently studying in ITE... OMG! I really need a break.

People stop hurting one another please? The way you behave sometimes hurt people that you don't know. I don't usually behave the way I am because I don't want you all to get hurt and thus resulting that you all will hate me. I really have enough of that behaviour in my secondary school and therefore I am telling in my blog to emphasize on this issue. You all are good to me because I do as I was told or I do things initative, if one day I really emo and I don't do things the ways that is expected... will you all still treat me the same way as before? I really don't know...

I need a someone who knows that I am in need, someone who knows that I need a shoulder to cry out and someone who knows that I am tired and try to cheer me up... Where do I find this person... I agree with my friend, Charlene from my secondary school, there is no such thing as Best Friend Forever, so I hope to find a very very good friend in RP, or else... I think I will go berserk...

HOLIDAY!! COME QUICK! BE4 I FAINT!

My mind is wandering away... away...